Every day, I decide not to die

  • Unable to cry — no-one to cry to
  • Unable to share feelings — No one in authority has the time or interest to sit with you. No one asks “So, how was your day”
  • Have learnt to cope alone
  • Constantly seeking companionship/love/approval
  • Boarding school not only deprived me of love, creativity, self-esteem, etc….it left me in a permanent trap
  • Have not experienced love or care
  • Where’s Home?
  • Fit in everywhere — but belong nowhere
  • Always busy. Don’t know ‘relaxed’
  • Live by structure
  • Tendency to shut down if there are any emotional problems
  • It either screws you up or toughens you up
  • Resented being ‘got rid of’ to boarding school
  • Was it my fault?
  • Is something wrong with me?
  • Don’t they love me?
  • Lifetime avoidance of groups
  • Lack of privacy or private space. One tuck box, one bedside table to call yours
  • depression
  • anxiety
  • low self-esteem
  • drugs and alcohol misuse and other addictions
  • burn-out
  • relationship issues — can only identify love towards own children
  • obsessive behaviour
  • a need to control

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